I've been having a lot of trouble deciding whether or not I'm still into this whole thing. I mean, I can easily go write this in a notebook where no one will be able to read or know about it except me. You know, what people did before this whole social networking/stalking/internet business. But here I am. There's one person who I never really get to know anything about anymore, except for through the use of this thing, which is actually the biggest factor to not deleting it. Strange but true.
Lots of things happen in life. In everyone's lives, not just specific few. So I'm not going to sit here and complain about how crappy my life is, because despite those few things that bring me down, there's a million good ones to equal them out. I wish so much that I could just be chill and consistently happy like a few of my friends here, because I don't like the attention bad moods bring. I'm at the point right now where I'm developing the social abilities to be comfortable around people I don't really know that well and it's really refreshing. Last night, I spent a few hours going random places with a group of people, most of whom I know, but not really. If that makes sense? but anyway, it was probably one of the better nights I've had this semester. That's the difference between sane people and those who go crazy with their friends, I think. I'm one of those people who finds something annoying in almost everyone (being honest, I'm fully aware of how judgemental that is. If i told you i find myself annoying would that make it better? Ok.) but I realize how irrational that is too and get over it.
I dont know where I'm going with this. I just need to figure out what I can handle and who I want to be around for the rest of this experience, or I'm going to leave UNI in a few years, with a lot of regrets. I think. You can imagine the mess in my head, based on the collection of stupid thoughts in this blog post. I know how thrilling this was to read. My heart is fluttering right now as I write this :P
But i'm gonna watch my fish fight/flirt now. Happy thursday?
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